Things don’t always go as expected for Khloé Kardashian. But the completely candid reality TV star is known for rolling with the punches in many aspects of her life, including her personal beauty journey.
Take, for example, the first time she ever got waxed. She didn’t plan on it, but that’s because her mom, Kris Jenner, planned it for her. “My mom has always been very crazy about rituals and routines,” Kardashian tells PeopleStyle recently. “I remember she made me get a facial for the first time, I was like 13, and I guess I’d started having hair under my arms. During my facial, I had someone come and wax my underarms and I was so terrified because she didn’t warn me! I was like, ‘What is happening?!’ I thought that was part of the facial. It was so traumatizing.”
And her surprise waxing actually has a lasting impact psychologically. “I remember I didn’t want a facial for like years cause I thought that came with it,” she said. “It’s funny because my mom is so polished. Most people would be like, ‘This is what you do. Take a razor and so on.’ And my mom was like, ‘We’re waxing this!’” (This set the precedent for Kylie Jenner’s forced manis as a teen, too!)
Yet, at the same time, it’s her family who inspire her to feel beautiful everyday. “I’m a huge energy person—I feed off of other people’s energy, and I try to get them to feed off of mine,” she says. “The people around me make me feel beautiful.”
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And that includes sister Kylie Jenner. “I’m so proud of Kylie cause I love when she is bare-faced and at her freest,” she said. “When I was younger, I never wanted to be bare-faced, cause you’re a little more insecure. So I love Kylie’s self-security at a young age.”
In fact, it’s both of her youngest Jenner sisters, Kylie, 18, and Kendall, 20, who are some of her main beauty inspirations. “If I am on vacation with Kendall and Kylie, they’re literally Indian-style, copping a squat, in a bikini and I’m like, ‘What!’ But they’ve always had those bodies,” she says. “I’ve just always wanted to be one of those girls. I never wore bikinis as a kid, I’ve never showcased my body like that. I have always been a one-piece girl or I was just didn’t feel comfortable going to the beach with my friends. I am still very appreciative of how hard I have worked for my body now, I just wonder, ‘How did those little bitches get so comfortable?!’”
That said, she finally stopped comparing herself to others and started feeling comfortable and confident with her body. “I have grown to have a ton of self-love, and that’s something I had to work on, so I am at a place where I just feel beautiful within my own skin,” she says. “But I have always wondered, when can I just sit Indian-style? I don’t know if I will ever be, but I’m not like, ‘God I need to be in a turtleneck.’ But being older, and now finally being like, ‘OK, I can be in a bathing suit around my friends.’”
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So, is Kardashian afraid of getting older? “In 10 years, I don’t know what I am going to look like—facial, hair color, body, anything,” she says. “But I also think that’s the fun of life. I hope I age gracefully. I believe in lasers and fillers—whatever makes you happy. But I am not obsessive about that stuff.”
“I just like to take care of myself,” she adds. “I sleep with oils and lotions on my face every night and I focus on being healthy from the inside out, taking 20 vitamins every morning and drinking water. That’s how I want to age gracefully.”
—Reporting by Jackie Fields